T-E-R-R-I-B-L-E

have you ever been in a love quad? if no, then you dont want to be in one. trust me. if you thought relationships were complex, you have no idea until youre in my situation. like seriously? wtf. anyways, my love life is not the reason of this post. today was terrible. i woke up an hour late and had to get ready in literally 5 minutes. it sucked. and to top it all off... it rained. wtf is up? its always raining! and rain makes me sad. really sad. lol i dont even want to do my homework. i think im just going to curl up in my bed an watch some movies. and then watch gossip girl at 7 cause i love chuck bass. hes the one guy that never disappoints me. hahaha. toally kidding. but yeah. hopefully gossip girl will cheer me up. oh! i forgot! okay, so i was planning on looking uber cute tomorrow but sadly, i have a chem lab so now i have to wear jeans and closed toe shoes. FML. no, fuck chemistry. im never gonna need it in life anyways. at least i know that in about an hour ill get a text from him and he'll make my day all better (: haha. look at me all sappy and shit. but whatever, i just cant help myself >.<

sundays always suck

I haven't been updating this lately and i feel bad so im going to create a long entry before i hop into the shower and continue my day. so today is sunday which means its homework and laundry day. yay! =.= i have to read about 30 pages for sound and the fury and i know its going to feel more like 300 pages. and to top it all off, i have to do 3 guided readings for history. blahhhhhh. my mom will probably force me to go to the grocery store with her and what not, which im fine with as long as she buys me the new teen vogue (: i also still have to call rebek and jenn and manage to squeeze in time to burn a coldplay cd and get new movies from blockbuster. i was suppose to get an ID this weekend but i guess that's not happening until next weekend or until my mother remembers. i feel really disgusting right now so i think i should go and shower. ill probably update again today? i think? i dont know. oh! according to weather.com.... its suppose to rain today. ugh fml.

coldplay sooths the soul.

Look at the stars. Look how they shine for you. And everything you do. Yeah, they were all yellow. I came along. I wrote a song for you. And all the things you do. And it was called "Yellow". So then I took my turn.Oh what a thing to have done. And it was all "Yellow". Your skin. Oh yeah, your skin and bones. Turn into something beautiful.And you know. You know I love you so. You know I love you so. I swam across. I jumped across for you. Oh what a thing to do. 'Cause you were all "Yellow". I drew a line. I drew a line for you. Oh what a thing to do. And it was all "Yellow". Your skin. Oh yeah your skin and bones. Turn into something beautiful. And you know. For you I'd bleed myself dry. For you I'd bleed myself dry. It's true, look how they shine for you. Look how they shine for you. Look how they shine for. Look how they shine for you. Look how they shine for you. Look how they shine. Look at the stars. Look how they shine for you. And all the things that you do.

rain rain

GO AWAY! like seriously. for some reason i'm always in a bad mood when it rains. it's just depressing to me. i do not find it soothing at all. not one bit. and on top of that school is not helping the depressing factor at all. just 7 more weeks...

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i want to see you more than i have ever wanted to see someone.
thats saying something.

i have something to say

everyone is trying to generalize and categorize life but its different for everyone. the only thing we all know is that its not easy. the rich snobby girl with a mansion and a bmw is definitely going to have a different perspective on life than the girl with the abusive alcoholic father that has never even stepped foot in an actual house. so one person cannot create a universal description on life. i even find myself realizing that i cannot really ask for advice from anyone because they dont really know the situation. im a big girl now and i have to figure things out on my own. i mean like honestly, im not going to have a lot of my friends from high school in college. maybe just like three. the three good ones that actually matter.i dont even know who those three are though cause people change and things happen. its stressful.


sometimes i wish my life was like E's.

just a little more about moi

as you know my name is nicole. i live in illinois but im definitely moving to california for college. i enjoy sleeping, texting (yes i know its cliche), watching movies, writing (duh), and painting. and i hate onions, cold weather, and show offs more than anything. id like to say im pretty spontaneous and random and sometimes even borderline weird. im pretty impatient and i get annoyed pretty easily. some people say that i look mean but i dont think so. like if you were to randomly come up to me and say 'hey lets be friends' and you didnt look like a creeper, id prbly say 'sure!'. i love laughing so if you can make me laugh ill prbly love you. im pretty short. im only like 5'3''-ish. my friends usually make fun of me and i usually blame my asian-ness. oh yeah! did i forget? im half asian. not that its important or anything cause i act 'so white' according to my best friend in the entire world JENNIFER SHEN. im a lucky person to have known her my entire life. youre just jealous cause ive known my best friend for +15 years. suckerr. so yeah, i really dont like rambling about myself. i feel like im missing key concepts to my personality that only your friends notice. if that makes sense. so im gonna stop cause i feel conceited. i always feel conceited when i start rambling in like those 'about me' things on myspace and facebook. if thats normal. doesnt everyone feel that way? whatever.



oh did i forget to mention how i love chuck bass? lol. he's like the best fictional character, well in my opinoin. so yes, now you can make fun of me. esspecially you jenn cause i know youre going to read this and mention it. (: